February 2013
I lied to my mom about still being with him. I know for a fact she’ll get mad.
There’s only one person I want to go to prom with & it will remain classified.
Now I was the one who made the mistake.
I’m moving on.
Yeah, I knew something was up between you two. Knew I couldn’t trust you. But why do I even care? I shouldn’t.
I don’t know why, but I suddenly miss you. & it hurts. A lot.
Mixed signals.
If you want me back that bad, then PROVE it to me. Otherwise, stop texting me telling me how much you love & miss me. I’m gonna need more than that to show how much I really mean to you.
Oh booooo.
I think about you more than I should.
It’s so funny when people say, “he’s not even that cute.”
& the next day, I wake up feeling so much better. Like nothing happened.
I’m so done crying over you.
If you miss me that much, why th did you even break up with me? Oh yeah, you were scared of getting hurt.
Well look who’s hurt now.
Like I said, niggas would kill to fill your shoes.
Never gonna open up to you that easily. Just spilled my heart out to you & now IM the one who’s weak. Fuck. I was getting better until you had to text me your feelings & shit. Well hello!? Missing me is fucking the effects of a break up!! Don’t fucking text me, call me, or talk to me in any sort unless your ass is asking me back. I can’t believe I was that weak.
UGH. FUCK YOU.
You seemed fine to me.
Honestly, I’m doing better now. He still comes to mind every once in a while, but it doesn’t hurt as much as it did before. It just took time. I’m actually relieved. It’s just one less thing I have to worry about. No one to tell me what I can & can’t do. No one to argue with at night. Things are actually looking up for me. I mean, I’m only doing what he...
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I find out shit after we’re not even together anymore. K. -_____-
I hate that I miss you.
No more pain, please?
Pushing a girl away can result in her crying in some other guy’s shoulder. Be cautious.
So how long is it gonna be until I stop crying myself to sleep every night?
Gosh. Cried so hard, I was throwing up to the point where nothing came out. & let me tell you. IT FUCKING HURT. lol.
Gosh. I love my cousin Haley. <3 perfect person to go to for advice because she pretty much went through what I’m going through. She was able to get over someone who she’s been with for 5 years, and to me, she’s a trooper for that. She’s one of the strongest person I know.
Fuck it dude.
I’m fucking single!
Really!? Did you really fucking text me just to push me away? I’m hurt. I’m really hurt. Don’t fucking text me & give me an attitude the whole time. What you just did was… I can’t even explain it. YOU made things worse this time. YOU pushed me away. YOU hurt me this time. Now I don’t even wanna think of you because I’m hurting so much right now....
Man. Now I don’t know what to do anymore. -_______-
Now I’m laying here crying because I’m so overwhelmed with the thought of you…
So tempted to call and just tell you I miss you.
There was that one thing I was TERRIFIED of while being single & that was feeling lonely seeing other couples. That thought in my head saying, “damn. I miss that.” just kills me. I miss your warm embrace. I miss your sweet kisses on my head. I miss the love you showed me each & every day. *sigh. This is hard… Like really hard….
January 2013
What if...
There was another girl?
Ughhhhhhh. Not talking to you is sooooooo hard when I have nothing to do. But this is for the best.
I guess I’m proud of myself. Not too many tears were shed during this hard time. But I realized that I’m waiting for nothing. I’m not gonna wait another 2 months waiting for you to take me back. Think I’m crazy? I could do whatever the fuck I wanna do. Getting over you isn’t gonna be the easiest, but I have my friends being there for me. & as of right now,...
I tend to keep thinking of what used to be.
Now I’m left with regret.
This break up is actually good for us.
I’m glad we’re still talking. I’m glad we’re still talking all lovey dovey still.
I agree with you. This does feel like we’re starting over. I love how things are between us. I missed the way you used to talk to me like this. As long as you still have my heart, I won’t take down the posters, I’ll wear my bracelet,...
Healing process.
Step one: change bios. (Check.)
Step two: pack clothes, notes, pictures, etc.
Step three: take down posters & pictures off my wall.
Step four: cry about it.
Step five: return everything.
Step six: cry more.
Step seven: delete pictures.
Step eight: let time be the only medicine for this broken heart.
I lost hope.
Don’t believe in forever anymore. I don’t believe in never. I don’t believe in always. They’re nothing but pretty lies to me.
I can’t believe it… It’s really over… 27 months in the hole. Words can’t explain how I’m feeling. It’s really hard to stay strong. Just the thought of you gives me a sharp pain in my stomach & makes me tear up.. I never wanted to lose you. I never wanted you to leave me.
I’ve been crying myself to sleep every night for the past week because of...
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I’m still not convinced.
November 2011
I ain’t gonna lie, but you’re hella ugly when you’re mad. LOLOL.
I’m about to live my dream, and you’re not even happy for me. Can you at least support me? Please don’t ruin my dream because of your selfish reasons.
Prove to me I have nothing to worry about.
October 2011
